Everybody Hurts....
A Kathak dancer once said to me, "In your life, you will always be on an emotional, physical and mental upswing or downswing every 15days in a 45 day cycle."
Tonight i'm going to be singing 'Minnie the Moocher', it's a fun song where the audience is the chorus.
Rapid Eye Movement. I always thought the the lead singer wasn't the best looking guy around. How superficial.
I'm having 'a bad dream'...'chasing cars' while i sleep....you can tell from my rapid eye movement that 'everybody hurts'....
It's so much easier to fail. So difficult to succeed.
Subtext is a beautiful thing. As is hindsight.
I'm going to create a possibility....
I'm in a melancholic state...part of that cycle i guess. Passion is a difficult word. It's even more difficult to feel....and sustain...it's not difficult to feel - just to sustain. Hope is a bullshit word. Why is it easier to accept 'stillness'...difficult to counter change....fluidity....motion....it's difficult because we're conditionted to be the same and accept the same. To accept that this is ok. This - what i have right now. To be content. To be happy with what you have. Don't be ungrateful. Greed is a sin. i don't think it's a sin - but i don't think it's the best thing to have...to carry...cuz you end up carrying it wherever you go. And it just gets heavier with time. And you grow old...and tired....and have a pinched look on your face.
Why is everyone (including me) searching for something to belong to....something...a purpose....my purpose....what is my purpose....
Stillness makes me uncomfortable, and yet i accept it.
I ran over a puppy a few days back.............
I told my mum about it and ended up arguing about it....i wanted her to see my guilt and discomfort and say, "It's ok, you didn't mean to." I was looking for an escape....Later she told my dad and he said, "It's his pain, he has to get over it. You and i can't do anything to ease his pain."
They couldn't.....i had to let go....alone.....
i meditated...and had visions of life seeping away...
"where will i....meet my fate.....baby i'm a man....i was born to hate...." - keane
Everyone is carrying pain. Like guilt, it won't get lighter....until you let it go. You'll cry and you'll hurt and you'll howl not knowing why....but you need to let it go.
Have you ever thought that maybe it doesn't want to stay with you....that it's time has come to be let go.....but you're holding onto it because it justifies what you did? Because you feel you need to hurt to justify what you did....you 'deserve' it?
Completion.
Closure.
Peace.
Stillness.
Silence.
Space......
Limitless possibilities..........
Tonight i'm going to be singing 'Minnie the Moocher', it's a fun song where the audience is the chorus.
Rapid Eye Movement. I always thought the the lead singer wasn't the best looking guy around. How superficial.
I'm having 'a bad dream'...'chasing cars' while i sleep....you can tell from my rapid eye movement that 'everybody hurts'....
It's so much easier to fail. So difficult to succeed.
Subtext is a beautiful thing. As is hindsight.
I'm going to create a possibility....
I'm in a melancholic state...part of that cycle i guess. Passion is a difficult word. It's even more difficult to feel....and sustain...it's not difficult to feel - just to sustain. Hope is a bullshit word. Why is it easier to accept 'stillness'...difficult to counter change....fluidity....motion....it's difficult because we're conditionted to be the same and accept the same. To accept that this is ok. This - what i have right now. To be content. To be happy with what you have. Don't be ungrateful. Greed is a sin. i don't think it's a sin - but i don't think it's the best thing to have...to carry...cuz you end up carrying it wherever you go. And it just gets heavier with time. And you grow old...and tired....and have a pinched look on your face.
Why is everyone (including me) searching for something to belong to....something...a purpose....my purpose....what is my purpose....
Stillness makes me uncomfortable, and yet i accept it.
I ran over a puppy a few days back.............
I told my mum about it and ended up arguing about it....i wanted her to see my guilt and discomfort and say, "It's ok, you didn't mean to." I was looking for an escape....Later she told my dad and he said, "It's his pain, he has to get over it. You and i can't do anything to ease his pain."
They couldn't.....i had to let go....alone.....
i meditated...and had visions of life seeping away...
"where will i....meet my fate.....baby i'm a man....i was born to hate...." - keane
Everyone is carrying pain. Like guilt, it won't get lighter....until you let it go. You'll cry and you'll hurt and you'll howl not knowing why....but you need to let it go.
Have you ever thought that maybe it doesn't want to stay with you....that it's time has come to be let go.....but you're holding onto it because it justifies what you did? Because you feel you need to hurt to justify what you did....you 'deserve' it?
Completion.
Closure.
Peace.
Stillness.
Silence.
Space......
Limitless possibilities..........
