And yet i do it everyday.
"Acting to me is a true self-expression of my inner desires and helps me connect with my inner self and the many selves there are within others."
All that is cock.
Actually it's true - it's just one way of describing acting.
I miss being on stage. I haven't cuz my head got a bit too swollen - too soon. And i started throwing my weight around - not literally or figuratively...directly - but in my own stupid pompous way.
Yes - i'm pompous....but if you've read enough of this blog...you'll know that to be fairly accurate...but then pomposity has it's reasons for being....
What i love most about acting...........is that first step on stage........after weeks , sometimes months, of rehearsals...workshops...discussions...arguements....points of view...all that.....
just for that one step...
cuz with that one step - the preparation is over. You are deemed to be prepared....to take that step....and deliver....if you then mess up a scene or cues or lines...that's just something that happened in that moment - and ofcourse, to others, it would reflect badly on your preparation or the lack of it...but...i dunno...what i mean to say is - once you take that first step onto stage after all those weeks - you're starting a completely different process of judgement and evaluation....and preparation too :) Cuz by the end of the evening, your director will have his notes hehe...and if you messed up - you'll hear of it for sure!
And that's the amazing part about the whole craft...the learning through exchange...through listening to each other....
"listening on stage" is key to great performances or, "a great actor is one who listens" - according to Alec Guiness...
I wanted to be great - but i gave up too soon. Like many other things in my life. Where i felt like i'd proved whatever i had to - to myself and those around me....and so i needed a different challenge....
...but i think i'm ready to start over. As with a few other things in life....that make me - me.
I love acting...and being on stage...cuz of the many lives you get to experience....get to live...
It's been too long...
"Acting to me is a true self-expression of my inner desires and helps me connect with my inner self and the many selves there are within others."
All that is cock.
Actually it's true - it's just one way of describing acting.
I miss being on stage. I haven't cuz my head got a bit too swollen - too soon. And i started throwing my weight around - not literally or figuratively...directly - but in my own stupid pompous way.
Yes - i'm pompous....but if you've read enough of this blog...you'll know that to be fairly accurate...but then pomposity has it's reasons for being....
What i love most about acting...........is that first step on stage........after weeks , sometimes months, of rehearsals...workshops...discussions...arguements....points of view...all that.....
just for that one step...
cuz with that one step - the preparation is over. You are deemed to be prepared....to take that step....and deliver....if you then mess up a scene or cues or lines...that's just something that happened in that moment - and ofcourse, to others, it would reflect badly on your preparation or the lack of it...but...i dunno...what i mean to say is - once you take that first step onto stage after all those weeks - you're starting a completely different process of judgement and evaluation....and preparation too :) Cuz by the end of the evening, your director will have his notes hehe...and if you messed up - you'll hear of it for sure!
And that's the amazing part about the whole craft...the learning through exchange...through listening to each other....
"listening on stage" is key to great performances or, "a great actor is one who listens" - according to Alec Guiness...
I wanted to be great - but i gave up too soon. Like many other things in my life. Where i felt like i'd proved whatever i had to - to myself and those around me....and so i needed a different challenge....
...but i think i'm ready to start over. As with a few other things in life....that make me - me.
I love acting...and being on stage...cuz of the many lives you get to experience....get to live...
It's been too long...
