...i sat for a few minutes in front of the computer before turning it on...thinking about how i'd spent my whole sunday...
I watched 'Pretty Woman' in the morning...watched a bit of 'Runaway Bride' in the afternoon....followed by a bit of 'Mortal Kombat'....and then 'Stepmom' a short while back (it was Julia Roberts' day; quite like her anyway). Inbetween all this, i had prawncurry rice for lunch, kept making trips to the fridge through the day (explains my expanding girth) and sent a few sms's and did some stuff on the laptop as well...
In short, my whole day was the result of 'communication' - i was communicating with the t.v., fridge, my cellphone and my laptop. Besides communicating with the bed and my pajamas through the day.
As i sat before the computer, about to turn it on - i realized that it was almost instinctive. I - needed - to be in touch with something or someone at all times. Be it the characters of a movie or those in real life...and were all this to be taken away, or not be available - i think i'd feel the way i did as i sat before the computer....a little lost.
What if i woke up tomorrow and there was no cellphone, no t.v., no laptop, no computer, no car, no watch, no landline, no people to communicate with....no people anywhere - no people on the roads, no people in their houses, no people in little pan shops, no dogs on the street, no cars on the roads, no airplanes, no ships, no trains...no bell ringing in the morning when my dad prays....no parents, no family...no pets...nobody...
I'd feel as empty as i do as i write this.
My world is about people. People i know / don't know. People i'm in touch with / not in touch with. People i've met / haven't met / will never meet...
My world is a result of all those people...and if they weren't around...i'd feel - lost.
It's not to say....well.....it gets me thinking about how people matter to me...in how many different ways....what do they bring to my life...and what do i, in turn, bring to theirs.
If i were to die the moment i publish this post online - will i have lived my life for myself...or for others...?
I won't be around to answer that question.............who will..?
I watched 'Pretty Woman' in the morning...watched a bit of 'Runaway Bride' in the afternoon....followed by a bit of 'Mortal Kombat'....and then 'Stepmom' a short while back (it was Julia Roberts' day; quite like her anyway). Inbetween all this, i had prawncurry rice for lunch, kept making trips to the fridge through the day (explains my expanding girth) and sent a few sms's and did some stuff on the laptop as well...
In short, my whole day was the result of 'communication' - i was communicating with the t.v., fridge, my cellphone and my laptop. Besides communicating with the bed and my pajamas through the day.
As i sat before the computer, about to turn it on - i realized that it was almost instinctive. I - needed - to be in touch with something or someone at all times. Be it the characters of a movie or those in real life...and were all this to be taken away, or not be available - i think i'd feel the way i did as i sat before the computer....a little lost.
What if i woke up tomorrow and there was no cellphone, no t.v., no laptop, no computer, no car, no watch, no landline, no people to communicate with....no people anywhere - no people on the roads, no people in their houses, no people in little pan shops, no dogs on the street, no cars on the roads, no airplanes, no ships, no trains...no bell ringing in the morning when my dad prays....no parents, no family...no pets...nobody...
I'd feel as empty as i do as i write this.
My world is about people. People i know / don't know. People i'm in touch with / not in touch with. People i've met / haven't met / will never meet...
My world is a result of all those people...and if they weren't around...i'd feel - lost.
It's not to say....well.....it gets me thinking about how people matter to me...in how many different ways....what do they bring to my life...and what do i, in turn, bring to theirs.
If i were to die the moment i publish this post online - will i have lived my life for myself...or for others...?
I won't be around to answer that question.............who will..?
