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it's so important to have positive energy all around you....
Positivity begets positivity. Being in a positive state of mind relaxes you....makes you more observant and attentive....you smile more often (possibly :) ...and are more at peace with yourself and your surroundings...and the people in your life....
Having positive energy or carrying positive energy is just a very simple way of ensuring that same energy comes back to you. Take our landlord for example - before he walked into our store for the first time (after signing the contract), he stood at the door for a short while and then walked in to congratulate my dad. When my dad asked him why he'd stopped just before walking in, he said, " I said a little prayer for good fortune and prosperity to come your way. Afterall, only if you prosper, do i prosper, right? :)"
...and that's so true. So often we look around ourselves and see so much that is wrong; with our lives...the people in it....our work...and so on. We nitpick...all the time. We frown, we scowl. We fuss. Make more of a situation than is actually the case. And what does all this bring us? :) Stress. Tension. Anxiety. And it all comes from a particular state of mind.
Our own state of mind. Now, if we just flip the picture a little bit - look for the good in our lives. Look for the good in people around us. Look at everything we have in our lives because of work - all the good we have. And suddenly, in just thinking about it - the picture changes.
It's all a result of my state of mind....your state of mind....our state of mind.
Last night, i was serving myself some dinner and my brother was telling me how my mum has suddenly got very 'into' spiritual programs on television. Apparently, the world is going through a really bad phase and will do so for the next 3 years because Saturn has moved into our dominant house or something to that effect.
:)
The easiest thing to do now, would be - quite literally - to blame the stars (or planet in this case) for something bad that might be happening in our lives. Cuz it really is that simple...
It really is that simple to blame 'external factors' for our life being the way it is...Saturn is an external factor right? It isn't exactly part of our world i.e. Earth. The same way, negative energy isn't a part of our lives. It's an external factor that we like bringing into our lives....because we're 'human'.
I wonder if we'll ever actually become the kind of 'earth' that we've seen in the new 'Star Wars' series. Where everything is clean...and bright. Ofcourse, there they aren't worrying about the 'war in Iraq' - but inter-gallactic wars. Life has evolved by then. And yet even today there are certain tribes in Africa - whose quality and way of life hasn't changed very much at all over the last 2000 odd years. We've been through the french revolution, the industrial revolution, the Indian revolution for independence, the IT revolution...the world has continued to revolve - and they've stood still.
Or have they? Is their way of life as we'll live it in a 1000 years? Star Wars is set in a time about 700 or 800 years from today, if i'm not mistaken. Won't life have evolved to that level by then?
Will we be blogging using 'energy' as zero's and one's with our finger tips instead of the keyboard and writing on thin air....leaving pockets of 'memorized energy' to revisit whenever we want....and leaving them all around us....in spaces that we visit....so all the memories that we associate with specific people and spaces - we can actually go back and revisit or read or own thoughts - as we felt them and when we felt them - in that moment.
Life will be all about energy.
Just like it is today.
Positivity begets positivity.
And so :) I wish you well, oh reader of my blog. hehe Go out there and be positive - even if you don't feel like it right now....cuz you never know ...the positivity that you send out right now...just might come right back to you when you really need it!
Cheers
Positivity begets positivity. Being in a positive state of mind relaxes you....makes you more observant and attentive....you smile more often (possibly :) ...and are more at peace with yourself and your surroundings...and the people in your life....
Having positive energy or carrying positive energy is just a very simple way of ensuring that same energy comes back to you. Take our landlord for example - before he walked into our store for the first time (after signing the contract), he stood at the door for a short while and then walked in to congratulate my dad. When my dad asked him why he'd stopped just before walking in, he said, " I said a little prayer for good fortune and prosperity to come your way. Afterall, only if you prosper, do i prosper, right? :)"
...and that's so true. So often we look around ourselves and see so much that is wrong; with our lives...the people in it....our work...and so on. We nitpick...all the time. We frown, we scowl. We fuss. Make more of a situation than is actually the case. And what does all this bring us? :) Stress. Tension. Anxiety. And it all comes from a particular state of mind.
Our own state of mind. Now, if we just flip the picture a little bit - look for the good in our lives. Look for the good in people around us. Look at everything we have in our lives because of work - all the good we have. And suddenly, in just thinking about it - the picture changes.
It's all a result of my state of mind....your state of mind....our state of mind.
Last night, i was serving myself some dinner and my brother was telling me how my mum has suddenly got very 'into' spiritual programs on television. Apparently, the world is going through a really bad phase and will do so for the next 3 years because Saturn has moved into our dominant house or something to that effect.
:)
The easiest thing to do now, would be - quite literally - to blame the stars (or planet in this case) for something bad that might be happening in our lives. Cuz it really is that simple...
It really is that simple to blame 'external factors' for our life being the way it is...Saturn is an external factor right? It isn't exactly part of our world i.e. Earth. The same way, negative energy isn't a part of our lives. It's an external factor that we like bringing into our lives....because we're 'human'.
I wonder if we'll ever actually become the kind of 'earth' that we've seen in the new 'Star Wars' series. Where everything is clean...and bright. Ofcourse, there they aren't worrying about the 'war in Iraq' - but inter-gallactic wars. Life has evolved by then. And yet even today there are certain tribes in Africa - whose quality and way of life hasn't changed very much at all over the last 2000 odd years. We've been through the french revolution, the industrial revolution, the Indian revolution for independence, the IT revolution...the world has continued to revolve - and they've stood still.
Or have they? Is their way of life as we'll live it in a 1000 years? Star Wars is set in a time about 700 or 800 years from today, if i'm not mistaken. Won't life have evolved to that level by then?
Will we be blogging using 'energy' as zero's and one's with our finger tips instead of the keyboard and writing on thin air....leaving pockets of 'memorized energy' to revisit whenever we want....and leaving them all around us....in spaces that we visit....so all the memories that we associate with specific people and spaces - we can actually go back and revisit or read or own thoughts - as we felt them and when we felt them - in that moment.
Life will be all about energy.
Just like it is today.
Positivity begets positivity.
And so :) I wish you well, oh reader of my blog. hehe Go out there and be positive - even if you don't feel like it right now....cuz you never know ...the positivity that you send out right now...just might come right back to you when you really need it!
Cheers
A walk down the lane...
I just got back from having a conversation with god…
There’s a really quaint church here in Fraser Town. There actually are quite a few :) but I quite like this one; called the ‘Holy Ghost Church’.
Infact, even before I moved this side of town, I used to like coming to this particular church…for the absolute ense of serenity and peace I felt, sitting inside the church with only a few other people there. The church itself must be about 40 – 50 years old (I’m guessing)…point being that it isn’t one’ve those very ‘traditional’ churches in the architectural style you might see….it’s quite Spartan…which gives a tremendous sense of space. So you can go and sit somewhere in a corner and have your own ‘space’…
It’s Saturday evening, and I’ve been at the office for some time now, so I thought I’d walk up the road and go to the church…maybe just sit there for a short while. Reached there to find ‘Mass’ going on. I think the only time I’ve probably sat through an entire ‘mass’ (hope I’m referring to it correctly) is when I was probably in the 4th or 5th std in Goa.
I studied in a catholic school called, ‘The Red Rosary School’. :) For the longest time, they collected funds that ‘were going towards the new school building’. I left goa when I I’d just finished with the 8th grade, that was in ’92. I went back there for the first time in 8 years, in 2000 – and they were still collecting funds! Hehe
I quite enjoyed school life. Come to think of it, in Goa I went to a Catholic school and right after that I went to a very ‘hindu’ school run by a religious matt in Mysore! ….but the reverence with which we said our morning prayers was the same…at Red Rosary, the whole school would gather at the school grounds (which didn’t really belong to the school) and we’d say the ‘hail mary’ and have readings of ‘todays news’ (which nobody paid any attention to, except the ‘quizzers’ who were off to some general knowledge quiz or the other!) followed by ‘thought for the day’ and the principal’s address.
At J.S.S. (Mysore), we followed pretty much the same routine. The main difference being that we most definitely had a school ground and one massive school building! ….i quite enjoyed those two years in Mysore….i remember I made such a drama about leaving after the 1st year (i.e. after completing the 9th grade) …and all my friends were like, “don’t leave, we’ll miss you so much!” (all of which I absolutely loved!) ..but then I never did leave…hehe…fun times they were...if only I was in a hostel – it would’ve made for the perfect P.G.Wodehouse story!
That’s another thing I used to love….reading P.G.Wodehouse. And then ofcourse I’d pretend to read ‘The Collected Works of Kahlil Gibran’ and ‘Atlas Shrugged’ by Ayn Rand. Actually, I did read them…and got a little carried away by what I read. At 15, when you’re reading about deep capitalistic theories on money (Ayn Rand) and how ‘a sheet of pure white paper is pure…and chaste…..and empty’ (Kahlil Gibran) – it makes quite an impact on you. As it did on me.
The pretense was about having written some truly ‘original’ poetry – which was just me copying some ‘simpler’ (or so I thought) poems of Kahlil Gibran and passing them off as my own. I was quite the actor! Managed to ‘pull the wool over the eyes’ of my English teachers, my dad….i guess it’s just one’ve those things you do as a kid. I was quite a loner and an introvert, so this was one way of drawing attention to myself.
The phases we go through while growing up….I mean, I’ve said some truly horrible things to my parents….troubled them so very much…
It was so unnecessary….
Today in the church, I truly felt at ‘peace’ with myself. To just stand there and listen to the sermon…watch people stand there in reverence…it’s quite humbling.
I hope I can learn to be more humble..more often. It’s so easy to get carried away…by anything….to be ‘impressionable’. I don’t think we ever stop being ‘impressionable’. The world is an ever changing place…so there’ll always be something new…someone new….someplace new….that’ll make an impression on you. I guess the key to remaining grounded is not to forget where you come from…or that it’s important, in light of all achievements – to remain humble.
And every once in a while, to have a conversation with god……just to thank him.
There’s a really quaint church here in Fraser Town. There actually are quite a few :) but I quite like this one; called the ‘Holy Ghost Church’.
Infact, even before I moved this side of town, I used to like coming to this particular church…for the absolute ense of serenity and peace I felt, sitting inside the church with only a few other people there. The church itself must be about 40 – 50 years old (I’m guessing)…point being that it isn’t one’ve those very ‘traditional’ churches in the architectural style you might see….it’s quite Spartan…which gives a tremendous sense of space. So you can go and sit somewhere in a corner and have your own ‘space’…
It’s Saturday evening, and I’ve been at the office for some time now, so I thought I’d walk up the road and go to the church…maybe just sit there for a short while. Reached there to find ‘Mass’ going on. I think the only time I’ve probably sat through an entire ‘mass’ (hope I’m referring to it correctly) is when I was probably in the 4th or 5th std in Goa.
I studied in a catholic school called, ‘The Red Rosary School’. :) For the longest time, they collected funds that ‘were going towards the new school building’. I left goa when I I’d just finished with the 8th grade, that was in ’92. I went back there for the first time in 8 years, in 2000 – and they were still collecting funds! Hehe
I quite enjoyed school life. Come to think of it, in Goa I went to a Catholic school and right after that I went to a very ‘hindu’ school run by a religious matt in Mysore! ….but the reverence with which we said our morning prayers was the same…at Red Rosary, the whole school would gather at the school grounds (which didn’t really belong to the school) and we’d say the ‘hail mary’ and have readings of ‘todays news’ (which nobody paid any attention to, except the ‘quizzers’ who were off to some general knowledge quiz or the other!) followed by ‘thought for the day’ and the principal’s address.
At J.S.S. (Mysore), we followed pretty much the same routine. The main difference being that we most definitely had a school ground and one massive school building! ….i quite enjoyed those two years in Mysore….i remember I made such a drama about leaving after the 1st year (i.e. after completing the 9th grade) …and all my friends were like, “don’t leave, we’ll miss you so much!” (all of which I absolutely loved!) ..but then I never did leave…hehe…fun times they were...if only I was in a hostel – it would’ve made for the perfect P.G.Wodehouse story!
That’s another thing I used to love….reading P.G.Wodehouse. And then ofcourse I’d pretend to read ‘The Collected Works of Kahlil Gibran’ and ‘Atlas Shrugged’ by Ayn Rand. Actually, I did read them…and got a little carried away by what I read. At 15, when you’re reading about deep capitalistic theories on money (Ayn Rand) and how ‘a sheet of pure white paper is pure…and chaste…..and empty’ (Kahlil Gibran) – it makes quite an impact on you. As it did on me.
The pretense was about having written some truly ‘original’ poetry – which was just me copying some ‘simpler’ (or so I thought) poems of Kahlil Gibran and passing them off as my own. I was quite the actor! Managed to ‘pull the wool over the eyes’ of my English teachers, my dad….i guess it’s just one’ve those things you do as a kid. I was quite a loner and an introvert, so this was one way of drawing attention to myself.
The phases we go through while growing up….I mean, I’ve said some truly horrible things to my parents….troubled them so very much…
It was so unnecessary….
Today in the church, I truly felt at ‘peace’ with myself. To just stand there and listen to the sermon…watch people stand there in reverence…it’s quite humbling.
I hope I can learn to be more humble..more often. It’s so easy to get carried away…by anything….to be ‘impressionable’. I don’t think we ever stop being ‘impressionable’. The world is an ever changing place…so there’ll always be something new…someone new….someplace new….that’ll make an impression on you. I guess the key to remaining grounded is not to forget where you come from…or that it’s important, in light of all achievements – to remain humble.
And every once in a while, to have a conversation with god……just to thank him.
Add a story
.....subtract a story....multiply a story....divide a story....into whatever you want
Like cooking.
You add, subtract, multiply, divide. Great cooks/chefs, supposedly do all this on instinct. They cook up stories. That we experience and then narrate to our friends, family, acquaintances, loved ones. The digest the story and vomit it out on someone else's face.
Like Exams.
When you're a kid, your teacher comes to class and vomits out whatever he has to teach. You eat the vomit; digest it, then vomit it out in the exam. Then the teacher checks through to see how much of his original vomit is in there or how close is your vomit to his vomit. Feel like vomiting?
Like after drinking.
Too much that is. I once sat at Opus, 'speaking on the big white telephone' for about 2 1/2 hours. The conversation was mostly one sided.
Like in introspection.
Questioning, thinking, wishing, wondering, exploring. You get lost in yourself, in your own thoughts.
Like in dreaming.
Time takes on a different meaning when you're dreaming. Dreams, if you have them often enough, are like living a parallel 'life' altogether. You see things you wouldn't see otherwise. Feel things you wouldn't otherwise...not necessarily though.
quetesh at Friday, 8. June 2007, 07:50
Like in waiting in a loooooooong q to use the loo
when YOU'RE the one who needed to use it two minutes ago. What will you not sacrifice for that ultimate relief? and then, just to distract yourself from that bursting bladder (it's going to anytime now...)you desperately grasp at something (anything!) that's even more of a problem...
1. how to tackle parents?
2. ditto
3. how to tackle the bf/gf? (btw, he/she was looking really hot that night...some more on that in your mind...ummm...aaaahhh and then you feel the rush and then lo! it does bring you back to your original problem and now it's best to abondon this particular thought...save it for a boring meeting or something)
4. 5. and 6. : bo problems (wrt the guy/girl in front of you! and then you're like once {JUST ONCE} when you were smelling like the pig and just pretended like it was actually someone else, haha!) ...ok this is not helping; lets try global warming....my body does feel like a furnice with all energy utilised to control my sphincter (is that how you speel it? i used to be so daaaaaaaaamn goooooood at speelings ya!)muscles and now im sweating; next: SING! so i go hmmmmm...hmm.hmmmm (till that guy/girl in front starts waving his/her hands as if to ward of an extremely annoying buzzzing insect, he still doesnt realize its me humming and not really his/her bo thats attracted the wrath of this incessant buzzing...)
ok and by now you're moving closer...almost there and then you're like i dont know anyone here so what if just what if i let go? right here right now...! big shit! right? hahahahahah! did i just think of that! gross! yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccckkkkkkkkkk!
like in....
Add a story?
(as an experiment, this story is editable by all...so feel free to add, subtract, multiply or divide...as long as you're logged in)
Like cooking.
You add, subtract, multiply, divide. Great cooks/chefs, supposedly do all this on instinct. They cook up stories. That we experience and then narrate to our friends, family, acquaintances, loved ones. The digest the story and vomit it out on someone else's face.
Like Exams.
When you're a kid, your teacher comes to class and vomits out whatever he has to teach. You eat the vomit; digest it, then vomit it out in the exam. Then the teacher checks through to see how much of his original vomit is in there or how close is your vomit to his vomit. Feel like vomiting?
Like after drinking.
Too much that is. I once sat at Opus, 'speaking on the big white telephone' for about 2 1/2 hours. The conversation was mostly one sided.
Like in introspection.
Questioning, thinking, wishing, wondering, exploring. You get lost in yourself, in your own thoughts.
Like in dreaming.
Time takes on a different meaning when you're dreaming. Dreams, if you have them often enough, are like living a parallel 'life' altogether. You see things you wouldn't see otherwise. Feel things you wouldn't otherwise...not necessarily though.
quetesh at Friday, 8. June 2007, 07:50
Like in waiting in a loooooooong q to use the loo
when YOU'RE the one who needed to use it two minutes ago. What will you not sacrifice for that ultimate relief? and then, just to distract yourself from that bursting bladder (it's going to anytime now...)you desperately grasp at something (anything!) that's even more of a problem...
1. how to tackle parents?
2. ditto
3. how to tackle the bf/gf? (btw, he/she was looking really hot that night...some more on that in your mind...ummm...aaaahhh and then you feel the rush and then lo! it does bring you back to your original problem and now it's best to abondon this particular thought...save it for a boring meeting or something)
4. 5. and 6. : bo problems (wrt the guy/girl in front of you! and then you're like once {JUST ONCE} when you were smelling like the pig and just pretended like it was actually someone else, haha!) ...ok this is not helping; lets try global warming....my body does feel like a furnice with all energy utilised to control my sphincter (is that how you speel it? i used to be so daaaaaaaaamn goooooood at speelings ya!)muscles and now im sweating; next: SING! so i go hmmmmm...hmm.hmmmm (till that guy/girl in front starts waving his/her hands as if to ward of an extremely annoying buzzzing insect, he still doesnt realize its me humming and not really his/her bo thats attracted the wrath of this incessant buzzing...)
ok and by now you're moving closer...almost there and then you're like i dont know anyone here so what if just what if i let go? right here right now...! big shit! right? hahahahahah! did i just think of that! gross! yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccckkkkkkkkkk!
like in....
Add a story?
(as an experiment, this story is editable by all...so feel free to add, subtract, multiply or divide...as long as you're logged in)
a littel piggy on the trail
three days ago i turned 26.
i felt like the little piggy who went to collect sticks
along the way he passed through many jungles
and the walking brought a bout of hunger
so he sat and pondered
"am i really 26?"
"life has gone by oh so quickly
summer is here...stickily
'tis the season to eat ice cream
and to dream...."
but then came a dark wind along the way
and the dark clouds and thunder were here to stay
and the piggy looked all around
to find not a soul...not a sound...
...and then on the distant horizon...
he saw a beam of light....it was a risin...
with a puff of his little chest and a clicking of his fingers
he knew he was up to the test...
there was a distance and maturity in his eyes hitherto unseen
a wry smile on his lips
and a cap on his bean
off he went...to collect them sticks
cuz he knew he had to get outa this fix
and onwards ho to the distant future
with a little wonder and butterflies in his belly
he dreamt of someday bein on the telly!
sang a little tune
laughed to himself
and said, "...bare necessities...the simple bare necessities...forget about your worries and your strife....i mean it...bare necessities...the simple bare necessities....the simple bare necessities of life...."
i felt like the little piggy who went to collect sticks
along the way he passed through many jungles
and the walking brought a bout of hunger
so he sat and pondered
"am i really 26?"
"life has gone by oh so quickly
summer is here...stickily
'tis the season to eat ice cream
and to dream...."
but then came a dark wind along the way
and the dark clouds and thunder were here to stay
and the piggy looked all around
to find not a soul...not a sound...
...and then on the distant horizon...
he saw a beam of light....it was a risin...
with a puff of his little chest and a clicking of his fingers
he knew he was up to the test...
there was a distance and maturity in his eyes hitherto unseen
a wry smile on his lips
and a cap on his bean
off he went...to collect them sticks
cuz he knew he had to get outa this fix
and onwards ho to the distant future
with a little wonder and butterflies in his belly
he dreamt of someday bein on the telly!
sang a little tune
laughed to himself
and said, "...bare necessities...the simple bare necessities...forget about your worries and your strife....i mean it...bare necessities...the simple bare necessities....the simple bare necessities of life...."
In a few hours...
''...cuz ur stuck in a moment and you can't get out've it...''
I think that one line epitomises people's expressions when they're stuck in a traffic jam.
It's like they see their entire lives passing them by in those glassy eyed moments.
...got through the traffic and have reached chowdiah for a dance performance by attakkalari, titled 'saanchari'...
the posters and tickets are quite nice...we did a pretty shitty job of it when we were asked to work on the options - and lost the project to whoever has done these...
you learn from these experiences I guess.
yesterday I was at a seminar on ''the challenges in the retail....
it's tomorrow now...i've been lazing around in my pajamas all morning...watching tv and thinking about yesterday's performance....
....i was blown away by what i saw....
And i realized that in not being exposed to different cultures and ways of living...and just being on your own for so long - you get so set in your 'expectations' of what you think you'll see around you...in the way people might behave...in how events will unfold...in how people will express themselves...you view everything from this very 'boxed' point of view....like a horse with blinkers. 10 degree vision.
I just havent seen the world.
And i also realized that in being in the same place for so long and not having that 'world view' of things - i've become arrogant. Arrogant about my life. Arrogant about my work. Arrogant about people in my life and how i should treat them...i guess i'm disappointed in myself.
Arrogance.
I really need to make that trip to europe this year....in the summer...which isn't too far. I have to explore possiblities....of growing....of seeing...of exploring....myself...and the world.
It's amazing how so much can change in your mind in just connecting with a few people....those performers yesterday.
They gave so much of themselves to the performance...to creating that one true moment. I felt almost naked....and scared.....it's almost confronting to see that so many people can be so brutally honest and so completely...and so openly....to themselves.
I'm inspired.
I think that one line epitomises people's expressions when they're stuck in a traffic jam.
It's like they see their entire lives passing them by in those glassy eyed moments.
...got through the traffic and have reached chowdiah for a dance performance by attakkalari, titled 'saanchari'...
the posters and tickets are quite nice...we did a pretty shitty job of it when we were asked to work on the options - and lost the project to whoever has done these...
you learn from these experiences I guess.
yesterday I was at a seminar on ''the challenges in the retail....
it's tomorrow now...i've been lazing around in my pajamas all morning...watching tv and thinking about yesterday's performance....
....i was blown away by what i saw....
And i realized that in not being exposed to different cultures and ways of living...and just being on your own for so long - you get so set in your 'expectations' of what you think you'll see around you...in the way people might behave...in how events will unfold...in how people will express themselves...you view everything from this very 'boxed' point of view....like a horse with blinkers. 10 degree vision.
I just havent seen the world.
And i also realized that in being in the same place for so long and not having that 'world view' of things - i've become arrogant. Arrogant about my life. Arrogant about my work. Arrogant about people in my life and how i should treat them...i guess i'm disappointed in myself.
Arrogance.
I really need to make that trip to europe this year....in the summer...which isn't too far. I have to explore possiblities....of growing....of seeing...of exploring....myself...and the world.
It's amazing how so much can change in your mind in just connecting with a few people....those performers yesterday.
They gave so much of themselves to the performance...to creating that one true moment. I felt almost naked....and scared.....it's almost confronting to see that so many people can be so brutally honest and so completely...and so openly....to themselves.
I'm inspired.
